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Well I dunno why I feel like this

But I'm not giving a dam about myself, caring less, not intrested.

I feel as though Im hating my life once again and feel its better that no one new me. I just upset and get upset. I care for others still, though I just don't feel right about myself.

Not sure whats going to happen not sure if its going to lead anywhere.

I recently got regected by some boy, oh well, we are still friends

My daddy is out of hospital, its good.

I was happy for awhole 2 weeks it was amazing.
So happy with my daddy, Fel, Jared, Ryu and so many others...

Now Im all of a sudden emo again..or so I feel

Some of the things Jack said made me think

Koryu, my daddy's friend says he don't like kids <_<

Im feeling alot less infantile, even around Jared.

Whats with me? Why am I like this? Why cant I just dissapere and leave everyone else to their lives?

ARGH I hate talking like this. I want to be more infantile, have fun, and all that.

Someone I know is depressed its making me depressed too

A few nights ago I cried all night in bed, meenwhile the dog biting my bed sheets, I was wishing all night for wings again so I could see everyone, so I dont doubt, I know your all there.

Argh! Why am I like this. Im being so stupid. Maybe its just a touch of wishing and upsetness, some people not doing very well.

No I need to be happy, I'll try, I will. As long as everyone is with me.

Person I know please be happy soon

I love everyone and love should make me happy. You all love me back too. Someone hug me!!!!!! or hit me <_<

I made a new msn account and was going to use it to escape from everyone. Because of the way I feel I thought I should just go away, get a new gaia profile and just talk, talk just enough but not so much as to get a bond with anyone. Maybe once again I just feel alone and wish all was with me. Wish I had wings

I cant stop feeling like this sometimes, love will guide me.

Yes Im still infantile, its what I am, what I want to be

Sorry if half of this scared anyone.
Im sure the big paragraph back there might have widened a few eyes.

I suddenly know what I'll do
One day just so I can see a few of my most loving friends, I'll walk (not train or any transportation) Walk to London, then see Gash and Jack if they let me. I need to see someone. Wonder if I'll get at least one hug from Jack. possibly see if they can see each other at the time. Darn they are so cute together

Jack looks like this boy in my school <_<
His sister looks like a girl in my school <_<


Well thats about a waste of your time right there for ya...really nothing has changed apart from I went crazy again and now am sort of ok. I'll be happier Im sure when I see everyone

I feel like being with Fel, Jared and my daddy
Just us four for awhile, then Gash and Jack and Ryu..they should give more slot spaces

Well whatever
Dunno why I wrote this. I guess its like talking to myself..at least I feel better