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So I went to The Swallow today. ITS A GAY PUB! I went there and decided to crossdress. Met a nice person, talked a lot. Later on this guy who looked about 19 started flirting with me.

Well I eventually flirted back after drinking lots. I'm drunt btw. But I type perfectly so I can't be that drunk. Lets see two pints of beer, one half a pint of beer, about 3 apple sour shots. Meh, I WAS a lightweight. Dunno about now.

So this guy I'm flirting with, turns out to be 29 years old and married for the past 6 years. WTF??? DICKWAD! So like his husband comes up to me outside while I'm talking to someone says to me "I'm not being funny mate but would you stop flirting with my husband." I apologised and told him I didn't know. Crisis was averted thanks to this woman who was talking to me who works behind the bar.

I decide to go home. Before I started to flirt though all I could think of was my Jack. Boy who said he might go out with me when he turned 16 this December. I really like him but I dunno how he feels. I thought I'd just get over him. BACKFIRED LOL!

I guess its not so easy to go to a bar and find love. But I dunno if Jack likes me that way anymore. Well now I just feel like I just tried to get over someone I really like. He won't wanna go out with me now even if he wanted to. I won't find anyone.

Jared told me not to be discouraged. I should feel better in the morning.

I just want someone to love me that I can love to. Y'know, not a mother or father but this time a boyfriend.

I don't love Jack, but I want to see if I can end up loving him. Gay bars are not the way to get over someone.

Ah wells. *goes to sobre up or something*

Also to those who know I had a crush on someone across the ocean from me. Well theres not much chance in that either is there? Besides neither Jack or him has my love yet. Meh.