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Wow. My past couple entries... dramallama dramallama dramallama dramallama dramallama dramallama dramallama dramallama about a stupid boy that I thought I was in love with but I actually just craved the attention from someone I didn't know much about. STUPIDEST IDEA EVER.


... And that's all I have to say about that...


Anyway, I have a wonderfully insane, hyper, silly, strange, sweet, smart, sexy boyfriend now and I love him very much. heart

He makes me very happy. I still get dramallama sometimes, but he has an amazing way of making me smile and reassuring me when I am doubtful or sad or being overly dramatic/depressive.

He's already broken my heart though :/ that kinda sucks... we were together then we broke up a month later and then a month LATER we kinda hooked up again but then we realized we were both just being impulsive and should try to just be friends. So that is what we did for a couple months, and I struggled through the rest of August and September with my feelings for him but then in October I was more accepting of it because we hadn't really been hanging out much. Then on Halloween he was being crazy and texted me telling me we should hang out then showed up at my door 20 minutes later, only to take me out with him and his friend Helena trick-or-treating for 30 minutes because my parents said I had to be home by 11. The way he was acting around me that night, I knew he still liked me and I said so to Helena and she was like "oh, well that's kinda awkward if you don't like them back..." and I was like "yeah..." but I did... I more than liked him back.

Anyway, the next night I was studying with Cassie but we decided to split our study session into two nights because we still had half a sheet to do and neither of us wanted to keep going. I didn't want to go home yet so I went to the book store (good thing I did) then he texted me about screaming fml because stuff was crazy that night so I offered to come over to give him a hug since I was actually driving toward his house while we were texting (I know, bad Katie). He said that would be awesome and asked if maybe we could cuddle too but he said he would understand if I wasn't comfortable with that. But I said sure because I thought he just needed to be comforted. I shook while I drove and I told myself this meant nothing. I didn't want to be disappointed. Haha (: there is no way that night could have disappointed me. We cuddled and watched a funny show then we talked about things and played footsie and he turned off the light at some point when we were watching that show, or maybe it was during conan, and he was talking about us... then he turned off the TV and our faces were very close... and he said it was all up to me to decide where we go with this... so I kissed him. smile Of course I kissed him, I love that man! biggrin Hehe I say that to myself pretty much every day, either after I've hung out with him or after he texts me goodnight. heart

So yeah. 3 months later and still going strong. biggrin yay! I still haven't told him in person that I love him but that's ok because I don't want him to feel obligated to say it too. Haha you know what's kinda awesome but a little sad at the same time, at 2 months, this became my longest relationship. I'm happy about that fact though. Haha no one is going to read this. xd oh well. Right now, all I hope is that if we have to break up, neither of us get hurt. I'm worried about myself but that's a distant concern because this won't be an issue for quite awhile.