Sooo...maybe I'm just exaggerating again..
But..why do I have to do this? Cutting my wrists open definitley won't solve my problems..I know..
Every cut means salvation..a break from everything.. It's not painful...it feels great Addicting.
Actually it's like playing with your life.. You could end it right there with one. deep. cut.. Bleeding solwly to death..
Why not?
Death is more appealing to me than being alive...it always has been.. Blood floating from the flesh..the wound you cut open without second thoughts and hesitation
Maybe I want to freak out and make myself depressed over the most trivial things.. Am I seeking attention?? Because no one gave a damn about me and ignored me? Or is it help? To see if someone cares about me? Because no one ever showed any emotion toward me?
So why not end it already? Maybe it is pure curiosity..wanting to see if someone will help me..
I actually don't think someone will..
I want help and at the same time I don't want to see anyone..Isolation.. Paradox much?
I wonder ..how'd they stop me? Come running to my house, break the doors, bitchslap me and lecture me about how stupid I am and how wrong suicide is?
Come one! Ridiculous! rofl
That just doesn't make sense at all.. I mean..wtf? o.o
Oh yeah..and shove that "don't do it", "that's so stupid" up. your. a**. ^^ How's that s**t gonna help me? o_o
SuiiWantsB r a i n s · Sun Feb 01, 2009 @ 04:58pm · 0 Comments |