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Looking through the glass
------------------------------------------------------------ Note: This is showing an inner conflict between two parts of my personality.
Shi: My "cold" self A: My "friendly" self Suii: Me as a "whole"
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This dialog takes place in front of mirror, with those 3 arguing.
Shi: Who are you? Who am I? What am I? What are you?
A: You are me and I am you. She is me, and she is you. We are one person. But this reminds me more of you having multiple personalities.
Suii: Why?
Shi: Can't you see it? You are one person but act as if you're two different people. Your way of speaking, your way of reacting, your actions; those are contradictory. You can't even decide between being me and her. Just, Who are you?
Suii: I am me. Isn't being the way I am now representing me as me?
A: It can't go on like this. Do you want to act emotionless and as if you don't care about anything? You are lying to yourself, every time you do so.
Shi: You can't be all like "bwaahh I need you" and then reject them because you are scared and don't want to show you true self, your hurt side. Showing your emotions and feelings is not being weak. Being able to do that means your truly strong. Stop acting so ********' strong and invincible, because you ********' know you're not. I'll tell ya something: Your friends don't like that side of yours, they don't like me. So let it go. Erase me.
A: It's like he said. You have to make up your mind.
Shi: You are not like that. You do have a problem if someone ignores you. But you act like it doesn't matter to you. Doesn't that mean you don't care about your friends? They should hate you for this. For lying like that. You say you hate lies, either way you lie to yourself, quit denying facts. It's ********' obvious. Isn' that right? They all should HATE you. Maybe they do? HATE. HATE. HATE. HATE...you deserve it. You say you want to change but you don't move a muscle. Isn't that only beacuse you know you have to change, but DON'T WANT TO. Only because YOU don't have a problem with being the way you are doesn't mean it ISN'T a problem.
Sui: LIAR!
A: Who is the Liar? You said, it didn't bother you if they ignored you. is that true? Haven't you been sad, and dissapointed in them? You said it to act strong. To prove yourself as independent from them, from anyone? You ignored it, didn't you? Got your mind off it and acted as if nothing changed. It did bother you. You were just being ingorant.
Suii: lies..lies...
Shi: Awww...poor darling do you need a hug? No one will give you one, because they hate your real life you. Let's face it kid. You depent on me and try to be me. You are NOT. In fact you were broken a long time ago. Stop your whining and grow the ******** up. You're slowly losing it. Or are you already mad? You don't want to face reality, but reality is this: If you don't stop being me You'll lose everything you hold dear. This person made you think, made us think, you should be grateful.
A: You are pathetic if you need this facade. Let's kill her. Kill her. The fake you. KILL.
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I play quiet, waiting for her voice to say: "Some things you lose, and somethings you just give away" Scold me, failed her. If only I held on tighter, to her. Pale white skin, blood twisted and withered away from me, from me.
Watch me, fault her. You're living like a disaster. She said, "kill me faster" With strawberry gashes all over, all over - me.
SuiiWantsB r a i n s · Mon Sep 14, 2009 @ 07:52pm · 0 Comments |
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