This is pissing me off.
Today, I almost had an emotional breakdown. No one around to talk to.
My grades suck big balls. Real family annoys the s**t out of me. The alternative "family" does as well.
Who gives a s**t about that anyway? No one but me.
Why the hell bother keeping this thing alive? If no one cares.. Come on. I thought that this "family" would be that what I alway wanted.
It's definitley not. Sometimes, it seems like I've more arguments with them, than with my real family. ******** it.
I wanted to do something with the people who are important to me. No. Not this time. Not next time. I don't care anymore.
May sound selfish, but I don't care. Why should I? I don't to be the only person to organize "family-reunions" especially if I've asked, days ago "are you free then?" -"Yes" and some time later the answer is suddenly "No". What the ********?
If I am important to you, then talk to me? I wanted to have a normal conversation with someone I haven't seen for months. You're treating me like s**t? Kay..I'll treat you the same way.
if this s**t goes on, then I'll never be able to stop cutting or stop being depressed. Can't you see it? Isn't it obvious enough?
I'm running, full force into my personal doom. I hope you're happy now.
SuiiWantsB r a i n s · Thu Apr 23, 2009 @ 06:43pm · 0 Comments |