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Recently (being yesterday) I added '1234' by feist, which I believe is a remix of the real song by this one female artist. I don't know who she is, name-wise. But, I love the song. So very much. It sort of has this Daft Punk spin on the way it's remixed, which was perfect for it. I commend the remix artist. heart

I guess I get where I stand. Wow, that sounds sort of harsh to say, but I really do. And not in a bad way, even if it sounds so. I know him. I do. I got caught off guard with all of his recent entries that I felt like I'd missed a lot. I do, again, blame school.

I crave him so damn bad. I'm not even kidding. Lately, I've been feeling tempted, and yet I feel like he wouldn't want to get with me again. By 'getting with me', only he would get that. Maybe I'm just now realizing that it can't be much more, but I'm not asking for more. My soft embraces, my nuzzles, my snugs, snuggles, huggles, hugs, and all of it symbolizes how much I miss him. How much I love him. My love is bold, just like the way I typed it.

That's how I love. I'm not platonic, but I love to just hold..cuddle..rub...lick..n**. Yes, I'm a ******** puppy, melting in his arms. I want him to know just how much I love to hold and embrace him. How much I love running my fingers through his hair. How bad I feel when I find someone else that wants to be my kitten, and he treates me so kindly. I feel so guilty. Yes, I am so ******** guilty. I know you feel it. Yes, you. Reading my journal entry. The only one who does. Or at least, lately.

Alex might catch me off guard, but you mean so much more to me. I feel like a liar when I say I don't like Alex, but me and him...we're only friends. He declared me his 'online boyfriend' for laughs, and yes, I know this. I know that I wanted him at some point, but then my reality shifted when I was left in the dust. Him. He knows me. He knows how weak I can be. The 'weak *****' that I am. I really am, even if it was just a first impression.

I love you, so God damn much. Don't make me feel so jealous. It does hurt me.

"Does he make you high, make you real?
Does he make you cry? Does he know the way you feel?
Love is all around you, your universe is full
But in my world, there is only you."

My musical forte was never really in singing or composing, but this song is getting to me.

Red_Gentleman
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Mon Sep 29, 2008 @ 11:49am

The song is familiar. ^_^

He's very glad. He's relieved. Realization, indeed. This is awkward for me, but I'll tell you he's happy. ...I'm happy. Know you're never quite the only one who feels guilty (and usually I have more to feel guilty about), but we... We understand this, no? He knows, he understands, he can feel as you do because of the way you do it. Teach him how not to make you envious, for he's unaware he does. But neither are you, no? You're not, after all, the first person to stalk comments, now are you?

He so wishes he could give much more, though. He would if he could, but... *sighs* He loves you, he loves you, he loves you! So much.

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