OKAY SO LIKE...
In fourth grade, I had just moved to this new school and stuff,
because the other one I went to before was to far away from my new house.
So,
First day:
I didn't really talk...AT ALL.
I went to my own lunch table, where I gave deathglares to anyone who dared to sit.
I only spoke to my teacher, when I was called on to answer or say something.
And I didn't do anything at Recess.
So,
The second day, I brought a magazine to school, right?
And like...it was a game magazine.
And it had an add about that one game Kingdom Hearts.
(Which I love now! <'3)
So.
I was all...staring at it, and I was talking to myself kind of
saying, "Maan. I'm going to get this for Christmas..if it's the last thing I get!"
Then suddenly, WHAM!
"You like that game too?"
Kristain was right behind me, and bending over to see the magazine over my shoulder. xDDD
I think as they call it, "It's love at first sight" .e.
Sooo, we kind of talked about it. Then somehow moved on to about ourselves,
then went back inside because recess ended.
He ended up sitting next to me in class. xD
So all I could think of was, "Omg...this is...FATE! DESTINY!"
And when I had talked to him,
I had become more open.
And I started becoming friends with others.
One of my other firsts, was Megan M. o:
I admired her. (Still do. :B)
She had those lioness brown eyes, beautiful.
Beach sandy hair, and was great at sports.
Everything I wasn't.
So, when I had become friends with her, I met some of her friends.
And later on, I began to know just about everyone in fourth grade.
And myself saying,
I might have been a tiny bit popular. I really don't want to sound selfish. Dx
Anywho,
I had gotten to know everyone.
Had a lot of friends.
Blah-Ditty-Blah-Blah.
But...the person, whom I had met first that year,
Kristain. I had grown to be very fond of him.
I could say now, I loved him.
Loved him so much.
But, one day, Tony. A person from my class,
kind of...knew. So he'd asked me to make sure.
And I told him I did, I was quite annoyed though when he'd known.
And when he'd then ask, "So can I tell everyone?" I replied,
"Sure whatever! What do I care!?"
Sooo/
He'd ended up telling EVERYONE.
Kristain first.
And...he knew.
But he didn't care.
He always still hung out with me.
Played at recess with me.
Talked about video games with me at lunch. xD
Everything still felt the same.
And I'd only grew to love him more each passing day.
But.
I'd soon found out, near the last day of school.
He was moving.
A whole town away.
I'd never see him again...?
When the last day came, and I'd have to remind myself over and over again.
To tell him. Personally, how I felt. Not just left other people do so...
I was so sad though.
And my sadness became anger.
So, in that instant, realizing this, I'd try to avoid him as much as possible.
We had watched movie...that last day. The class did.
Tony...kept telling me he liked me too.
And kept making Kristain try to sit next to me, but I wouldn't let him,
I would instantly make up an excuse to get up, and go out of the room.
Thinking something was wrong, he asked me if I was feeling okay,
but I'd make up a very foolish lie...something along the lines of,
"I'm fine really. I just don't feel like talking...AT ALL. Especially to you."
And when I'd said that, he'd just stare at me for five seconds, then turn away, going back with the others. I acted and looked like I was fine,
but I was really screaming and crying in tears on the inside.
I hated myself so much.
And I wanted to apologize so much.
but every time I tried to get near him,
something always got in the way.
And then,
at the end of the day.
The very last day of school.
I looked for him.
I knew I was supposed to be walking home with my friend.
But I didn't care,
I looked for him.
Then, I'd see him off in the distance, with his twin brother.
His brother on his skateboard, I'm not quite sure what he was on though.
Anywho,
I'd just stare at his back for a couple seconds, as they went up the hill,
almost disappearing out of sight, I had shouted his name.
Loud, but not loud enough to get everyones attention on me.
And after saying that, he didn't look back, and has disappeared.
I'd fall to the ground then, bursting in tears.
I believed I made up an excuse like "I'm going to miss all of my friends"
oevr the summer, to my parents for the explanantion of the crying.
I knew though, and I know now still...
I'm never seeing him again.
I don't even have a picture of him, form the yearbook.
And I'm beginning to forget what he looks like.
I can just rememebr clips and parts of things we did together.
I still love him, though..
And I probably will never get over it.
But...
I know I'll never see him again. Things will never change that way.
And that is...all I have to say today.
The End to my stupid story.
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