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Meh, I don't think many people will read this in time. But whatever, I might as well post it somewhere, lol.

Wellp, this is mainly being directed towards all the friends I have around in the SSBB Sticky, and whatever friends I have on here in general, but,

I'll *probably quit Gaia soon.

I'm really tired of waking up every morning, to go on the computer, and the first thing I think of is going on Gaia. Going to check if I've been randomly and miraculously donated some really high-priced item//MC so that I can make a large girly squeal and go off to MSN friends to gloat about it. I mean, since when did non-existent things make me so...bleh? Why do I waste what life I have and spend it on the computer or playing video games when I could be outside playing with friends?

Now, now. I'm not saying everything about this and other things is horrible.
Gaia itself is great in my opinion. It's generally a safe forum, and there's lots of fun things to do. But when it gets to the point where you're like. "I'm going to quest for winged anklets! Or an OMG!" You've sold your soul. (But please, I do not mean to mock people that have in fact quested such items and actually achieved their goals. So don't think that. Congrats for you if so.) Most of the time here you're judged based on how well your avatar blends and how much it costs. I'm not going to lie and say it's a ton of bullshit, and I think that's stupid. Because I'm a hypocrite. I do in fact judge people based on just that. When I meet someone nice around wherever, I think to myself. "Well...they don't really have anything about 100k on. And their avatar is solidly only worth about 400k. Ugh, really?"
I hate that.
I didn't think like that when I started this site.
I was willing to make friends with anyone, and it just didn't matter what they looked like. I played leisurely and I was just to come here when I was bored and to pass the time with others that wanted the same thing. But now I've practically devoted all my time to it. O_o;

I can't help but look at people's avatars sometimes and think,
"I wish I had those."
or
"If I got a hold of their password..."
Lol. What would I do if I got some rich person's password?
You realize how stupid it is (err, how you've become.*) if you think,
"I would steal their stuff."

Okay, okay maybe not.
I might just be flamin' because I know I'll never be one of those extremely lucky people that'll get randomly donated some high-priced item. Or win it. Or get rich enough to buy it. Or what-ever. I'm just jealous. :'c
I really do want to have a really high-priced item. Maybe then I'll get noticed more? xD I dunno. Just a dream.

But getting to another line,
I also devote my time here, because the friends I have in real life. Well, they aren't a lot. And they wouldn't really want to spend more time with me than they had to.
I'm just different, I guess. I love, love fashion, jewelry, pretty and cute things, etcetc.
But I also love reading to death.
...But if I were asked to decide between going to the mall or getting a new video game. I would choose Video Game. I'm very split when it comes to liking things.

I wear the best clothes I can when I go out,
but when it comes down to it I really don't give a s**t about what people think about me. Love is really cool by what people say it to be, and I'd love to meet someone too.

But then again with love comes heartbreak, so I'd much rather be alone and not have to face things like that.

Blahh.

I don't talk a lot either, unless it's on topics I really like.
I'm a top scorer in my school, but when it comes to having common sense..well I barely have that, lmao.

I don't understand the real world and I don't want to.

All I want is to be living my life knowing that everything will be fine, that I don't have to worry about anything. ...Yet part of me strives for action. I've always wanted to be in a life-and-death situation. And come out a hero. I'm just really weird, haha.

...But again, getting back to the main topic of my leaving.

I'm not quitting entirely. More of a "hiatus"..err, "lurking" gesture is what I'm aiming. I'll be coming on normally, but I probably won't talk to many people as much as I used to.

I've become very, very depressed.
Many sudden things are being flashed to me, and I don't know what to do now.
I know it's not healthy to keep everything inside, But I really, really don't want to talk about it guys. So please, don't worry. And you'll all be fine without lil' Speed.

I'll still stay in contact with you all via MSN and Cellphone, or even PMs.
But no calls, please. I'm very limited.
Texting is all good though, unlimited in that. And of course MSN is perfectly fine as well.~

If you need me via email, though.
Please contact me at: infinitespeedlock@gmail.com

Before I take my leave, I'd like to give a few friends of mine a couple words.


I'd like to start out with:
Tilly
Damn, girl. You're one of the coolest cats I know. ; ) I'm so glad to have met someone my age that's actually into the things I am. i.e. Brawl.~
You're a great, skilled player at that game, by the way.
I really thank you Tilly for being a great friend to me. You've helped me a lot when it comes to making decisions.

Slayn
Lol. The Slayn Legion.
Dude, you're awesome. Really. >_> Nuff said.
LOLJK I'm not that cheesy.
Besides being a godly Ike player, (and Marth), you're hilarious and cool on your own. Nice, flattering. And you've definitely got your charm.
I'd have to say you've helped my self esteem, and given some pretty wise advice.
So, thanks.

Zero
Ahh, Teach. One of my first friends I made coming into the Brawl sticky.
I can't stress enough how thankful I am to you for what you've done in helping me become the Lucas player I am now. Man, I really believe that no matter what character you main, no matter what tier they're at...if you try hard enough I still believe Lucas mains, and any mains like us can make it to the top. It's possible. So I stand, saying that as a Lucas main, and a Peach sub, I WILL aim for the top. And I know I can achieve it. Thank you for also being there for me when I needed you most, man. You're a really sweet person. I love you.

Evee
Lolbro.
Like Teach, I cannot stress enough how grateful I am to you.
For everything you've done for me.
You really think it's nothing, and you really always try and take blame.
But you know, you KNOW, that you've helped me immensely. You have indeed given me way more courage I could imagine someone that I've never met in person could give. Don't take it upon yourself to only carry burdens, Bro. As you said to me, we have to move on. Try and think positive. And try to find someone out there for you, because once you do, all doors will open. You can't leave me, and everyone else anytime soon. So don't. Please try and live life to its fullest.

Master Bleek
Supa' cool guy.
Sorry I couldn't tell you better bedtime stories. xD
You're really nice, man. Thanks for donating to people. I'm sure you don't get enough of that. And your MK is top quality.

Jorgie
You're a bit different to me lately, but It doesn't change my inner feelings for you man. I still love you. Thanks for being an awesome Puerto Rican!~

Ace
Mooom.~ I really enjoy getting to talk to you about anything. You give lot'sa good "advice", and you can make any moment hilarious by just adding the " redface " face. LOL.~ Thank you for being my friend, and you srsli have to come down soon so we can have some friendlies IRL, kay? ;'c

King
...
Man, you're one of the few exceptions of people that are still entirely awesome even after having so much good s**t. xD I know in general you're a godly player yourself, and I do wish we could've gotten the chance to brawl sooner.~ Oh well,
I'm sure we'll have sometime in the future, as said.
Thanks for giving good advice, and treating me well.

Oki
My main guy! xD
Though you of all people probably won't see this for a very, very long time LOL,
it's fine.~ I hope you know how awesome you are. And that no matter what you say.
Well. You still are. Rofl.
You're really, really sweet and smart. Cool.
Thank you very much for helping me the other day, (B+)
I am indebted to you also for looking out for me at Genesis.
I hope I get to meet you again someday, and that by then I'll be able to fully look out for myself, and maybe have made a name for myself.

Blue, CPU, Phil, AJ, Chxn & Puffs
Lmao, I had to cram you guys together due to you all being so awesome I couldn't have you separate. XDD
The other guys that looked out for me at the tourny. Thanks a lot guys. : )
You all are really awesome players, hilarious, and cool.
And Blue, I'll ALWAYS remember that car ride. LOL. Hopefully next time we all meet, we'll get to ride somewhere under different circumstances? XD
Love you guys.

Rush
>w<
You're really really cool, man.~
One of the best Links I've played. 8D And a very good friend.

Majes
Muh otha Bro.
<'3 You're a pleasure to hang with, and give very good advice as well.
Ily.~

DC
Hey man, thanks for being my friend as well.
I still owe you for all the times you've donated big to me. And won't forget it for a very long while.
You're an awesome player yourself, and keep going at it.~

Katt
The guy everyone's always hating on. But seriously, you need to know that it's fine being different, and you're a really good person. Thanks for staying you.

Pyro
The other friggen' cool Lucas main from our stickeh!
Your Lucas is the s**t, man. Never been a surprise you made it into the PR.
Well, thanks for teaching me some stuff, and showing off that Lucas mains can get somewhere. sweet as sweet

Anzlem
C'; I love youuu.~
You're the thread's best artist besides King and Puffs IMO.~ <3
Thanks for the spectacular art.
Stay cool, gurlfriend.

Laisar
I hope you feel better soon, and everything works out for you.
You've been a great friend to me for a long while, and a great brawler.
Please keep being you, okay? c:

KB
I'd have to say, our sticky's number one intelligence...guy. >_>
But really, you're great dude. I wish I could be half as smart, and good with Peach, as you were. Thanks for those matches, and thanks for providing me that MK speech earlier. It was nice hearing from someone that actually let their full opinion be hear and not just, "MK sucks. / pro ban". You're also hilarious, by the way.
I'll never forget the M2K signature. LOL.

DJay!
Another charmer. o u o
Haha, you're supa' tight yo.
Love your shirt, still. And your hats, do want.
I don't brawl you a lot. o A o I'm sure you're really good. ..Well, obv.
Lol, thanks for bein' cool.

2Black
is too pro @ lotsa stuff

Flare
One of muh best girl-friends here. c':
You've always cheered meh up and..well, you're just really sweet.
Thanks!

Keogi
Haha, I don't know you very well. But I do know you're a good player from what I've seen. Uh, thanks for bein' cool, too? xD

Tub
ur cool
tanks

G-Wy, Jay, Drig, Giizmo, Cameo, Noxity, Equal, Emo
Just a few people I don't quite know very well, but seem very nice to talk to otherwise. You guys are really cool, and all good brawlers.


It's all I can think of now. And I'll probably edit in the future.
But I semi-leave you guys with a curtsy, a smile, and hopes you all become...well whatever you all want to be.

I love you all,
and thanks so much. Again.