• Sometimes, I get tired of feeling the same emotions, and all I feel is tired.
    I'm always wondering how other people must feel. Why they feel what they feel. How it must feel to be gay. How it must feel to not be accepted in so many different circumstances.
    How it must feel to be divorced. To be unwillingly single, or undeniably shy.To be incredibly wealthy, spiritually elite, or siren sexy? How does that feel? You all seem to handle it pretty well, Just like we all do. You carry on normal conversations, it's not constantly on your mind, but it's there- Those things you know about yourself and have fully accepted. good or bad.
    I like to feel neutral to both.
    Day in, day out. Same emotions.
    Whenever I look too closely at how I feel, It's negative.
    I carry on as normal. I squeeze my cats each morning, go to work 9 hours a day, and try to spend time with my husband.
    How does it feel to never feel beautiful? to look back on times where you felt hideous and now would do anything to go back to that time?
    To feel talent-less, exhausted, overweight, and ultimately stuck in a place where every night ends with thoughts of "what if
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    It doesnt feel good.
    How does it feel to everyday try to stay hopeful, carry out plans for a better future and see no results?
    Not good at all.
    So i'll always be wondering as to how you're feeling.
    Carry on with you as normal, hiding our demons in the back of our minds. And I guess that you'll know- i'm tired.