• They say it's for cowards;
    people afraid of the truth and
    looking for the easy way out.
    Others say its for those with
    nowhere else to go.
    I'm looking for a way out,
    so I don't look like the villain,
    who took the life of a fifteen year old girl.
    I want to be the heroine of my story.
    Be the survivor.
    Let the memories evaporate from my mind,
    and rain down around me.
    So that they can no longer hurt me,
    rip me up,
    leave me torn for everyone to ignore.
    Even those who said they cared,
    said "I love you, please don't go."
    Said, "I'll be here... forever"
    I'll try my best to believe them.
    But my scars from previous tries to
    forget re-open and bleed out.
    I know I'm not the only one with this story,
    not the only one who has been hurt,
    humiliated in every way possible.
    But it's mine.
    And they say that once you tell someone,
    it eventually becomes easier.
    Others don't know who to trust.