• I am full of un-mixing emotions, pain, sorrow, anger, and hate.
    They all fill me at this moment.
    The moment when my friends need me most, and I can't help them.
    I can feel their pain, it enters my body and tears me apart from the inside out.
    Leaving me empty, numb, no feeling left at all.

    I am overwhelmed with every different sense of pain imaginable.
    It cuts through my skin, leaving me bleeding, tearing away my flesh leaving me bare.
    Blood spilling out of my eyes, clouding my vision.
    Hands shaking as I struggle to move forward through this torment, this pain.

    Sorrow consumes every part of my body as I fall to the ground again.
    Skin bare, tendons torn by the sadness the controls my body now.
    Clawing, tearing, ripping at my organs, gouging at my eyes.
    All I know right now is this constant agony, an uncertainty of the future.

    Anger courses through my veins, burning my insides.
    My flesh is on fire, melting off of my bones.
    I can feel the emotion, the anger eating at my heart.
    My anger has taken me over, I can no longer control my body.
    The pain I feel from hurting the ones I love is unbearable.

    Hate lingers over the shell of what is left of me, glaring upon me.
    I feel it as it takes my limb body and throws it like a rag doll.
    I can no longer feel anything, my body has been used up.
    Nothing is left for me but to lay here in my own self pity,
    Loathing myself for what I could not accomplish.

    My word has been broken by my inadequacy, my friends are gone.
    I have failed them one to many times.
    No more can they stand me, no more can they be in my evil presence.
    I am left alone.

    I have written down my feelings, and as powerful as they may be,
    Any word I use seems to be empty.

    Patrick M. Finney