• I remember long ago, back to my school days
    I was surrounded by friends. Friends who laughed with me and made me happy.
    And of all those friends, I remember a single one of them in particular.
    I remember we were so close.
    We would always play and laugh. Never hurt each other.
    Dare I say we were the closest of friends?
    You made every day of school a day of happiness.
    You were the reason I would wake up in the morning.
    You were the reason I could take on every day with a true smile.
    You were the reason my heart continued to beat.
    You were the very reason I found life worth living.

    But one day, you turned your back to me and disappeared.
    I searched and searched for you, but you were no longer the person that I once knew.
    I prayed daily for your return, for your realization of how much I missed you.
    And though you were there, I could see you right before my eyes every single day.
    You weren't "really" there.
    Something about you had changed, we had drifted apart.
    and even though I asked, I could never discover why.

    For years I cried and cried without end.
    So many lifeless days, so many sleepless nights.
    Until I finally ran out of tears. I could no longer cry.
    I was left with nothing and was hollow inside.
    I finally let you go. Though I still remembered you.
    You were no longer a part of my daily life.
    I didn't have to see you anymore.
    You were finally and truly gone.
    I lived my life with a smile again.
    365 days, and I never even thought your name.
    But suddenly, without warning you returned.
    Once I had finally gave up, you decided to come back.
    Painfully my heart remembered what it had once gone through.
    And just like you, the pain returned without mercy.
    The tears and sadness returned and plagued me every night as I lie in bed and try to sleep.

    Those around me don't understand Why I despise you so.
    They tell me to forget it, let it go.
    But I already let you go once.
    How could I possibly do it twice?
    And now I just sit and wonder.
    Would you want to start again?
    Forget about it and be friends once again.
    Because I know that's the one and only thing that I want.
    But what could I possibly say to you
    When we haven't spoken in so many years?

    Without you I haven't felt right
    I want to talk and laugh with you again
    During your absence, my life was lacking.
    And all this time, even though I pretend to be happy.
    I feel so empty inside
    Something inside me, is missing.