• I cannot allow myself to
    So heaven will you cry for me?
    Everything changes
    The broken down house
    Now rebuilt with red walls
    And I am no longer who you left behind
    Can you still love me?
    And you who stands behind a line I cannot cross
    And he who stands so close to whisper a sweet hello
    That fear holds behind my own sown shut lips
    Can you believe a year has past?
    Everything withers
    And everything grows and regrows
    Nothing is ever truly forgotten
    Right?
    And when a purpose is destroyed what do we have left?
    If you were so bad, and he was so bad
    Then why did you both make me so happy?
    There is good in everything
    Kiss my closed eyelids as I dream of you
    Are you really so far away now?
    What happened to then?
    Does anything really end?
    I don't want to grow old without knowing you
    Or him
    Or remembering
    Its okay to smile now
    Can you see it?