• They said just to be our selves
    But we all knew that was never enough
    They said we had every chance
    But how could we not ******** it all up
    We all were spending out lives trying to figure how to make our pulse stop
    You all succeeded and now I stand with another by my side

    You know it will never be the same
    We woke up side by side and not even a week later you where in a secrete CIA detention camp
    So your pulse got to end
    I’ll never forget your gleaming eyes of hope even as we tried to drink our lives away
    So I know I spend my life trying to figure out how to make my pulse stop

    You know I’ll never be the same
    I laid by you side
    Not even twenty minutes later your pulse stopped without anyone by your side
    So your pulse got to end
    I’ll never forget your hand pushing the gun out of my reach as you swore to god you would kill me
    So I know I spend my life trying to figure out how to make my pulse stop

    You know I’ll never be the same
    We joked about how we were starting to win
    Yet that night you pushed the needle into your arm and died the next day from it
    So your pulse got to end
    You know I’ll never forget how you told me to stop spending life high with a bottle of vodka in each of your hands
    So I know I spend my life trying to figure out how to make my pulse stop

    So ill spend my life wondering how to make my pulse stop
    Until I learn to see suicide as a tragedy
    Or that there is more good than bad
    Or I just get the ******** will to wake up everyday