• Self Esteem

    I want to believe that life is more than this. That love is war and I don’t always win. That I don’t feel, like I do. I want to pretend is unreal. I want to quit this race and let someone else go. Run ahead because I know I’m slow. Let me fall, behind cause I know, that there’s more that just this. I want to fall out of what I’ve fallen into and I want to shout that this work is more than it’s worth. Want to give up want to let go want to let down my hair and go slow, for once look at what I’m doing to myself. Fall in of what they call love.

    Chorus: I want to believe that life isn’t about what other people think but that hard for me with someone with this self esteem I want to believe but I can’t. I’ve heard never say never I’ve heard that giving up isn’t an option, and I’ve heard that you should hold on but that’s hard. I want to believe in everything I have and listen when my friends remind of that. And when I complain I feel like a broken record telling the same things again. And I know they hate it and they want to me stop. But I can’t help it when I feel this. It’s like being all alone in the cold. But somehow I know I have friends that it’s not the end and this story can go on even with the same old plot

    I want to believe that there is another side and that the grass is greener than it is here. That I can finally rest when I get there. That I’ll find someone who’s just like me and will follow me until the end that feels the same loneliness the same feelings just my other half. Wanting their light feeling jealously in my sight, every time I make a wish I wish that things weren’t like this. I always wish that I was someone else feeling deep inside I can do better but at the same time…

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    I know that people talk and just tell you not to listen but you know in your heart that it’s harder than that you have pick yourself up even if you brought yourself down. You have to keep looking up even if the world’s pointing down. Believing is harder that it seems because you never know where to turn and falling in love sounds hard until you’ve found what you’re truly looking for. Oh, I want to believe that life is more that love is war, that I don’t win every time and that I can just stop running in circle even though it seems like my routine I have to believe that I can do whatever I put my mind to even if that means, believing in myself with the self esteem

    Chorus: I want to believe that life isn’t about what other people think but that hard for me with someone with this self esteem I want to believe but I can’t. I’ve heard never say never I’ve heard that giving up isn’t an option, and I’ve heard that you should hold on but that’s hard. I want to believe in everything I have and listen when my friends remind of that. And when I complain I feel like a broken record telling the same things again. And I know they hate it and they want to me stop. But I can’t help it when I feel this. It’s like being all alone in the cold. But somehow I know I have friends that it’s not the end and this story can go on even with the same old plot

    Just want to believe with this self esteem I’ve got and try and disregard what I’ve heard before but that that’s hard and anyone who’s been through same can tell you what it’s like. I know I’m not the only one that I’m not alone. That I’m really out in the cold that all of that is just an escape from the reality of being warm. I just want to believe there’s believe that there’s more beyond this road. That falling in love can be good, and that I don’t have to be afraid anymore. Just want to believe in everything I’ve been told.