• My life is becoming one big Stress
    My mind is is slowly becoming a mess..
    Not too long ago the the past memories of her came to my head
    It got to the point where i wanted to be dead again
    Now its becoming stronger than ever
    I wish i had never met her
    Everyday...since u left me..not one day has passed,
    where i dont think about the pain u caused me nd how it didnt last
    Why cant my heart jus let you go
    Why does my mind feel the need to let me kno
    How much u ment to me in the past before
    how much my heart longs for you more nd more
    So many questions run thru my mind
    what wouldve happened if i did things right
    would we be together,my life wouldve been hella tite
    u were the smartest girl i ever met
    u were my first love and my biggest regret..
    I always remember the first time we met
    how much that first letter from you ment..
    for a while now ive learned how to let it out,
    to write these lyrics and go about,
    this is what i do on my spare time,
    Think, cry, and let out the emotions in my rhymes.
    you were the bestest friend i ever had,
    The one that could make me happy, but then i'd get mad,
    the fact that u wouldnt say i love you back.
    thats when things started going down hill,
    now im left with a hole in my heart that is yet to be filled.
    I thought what we you and me had was more then friendship nd a big deal,
    but it turned you that ur love for me wasnt real.
    You had me going crazy for you almost all the days,
    I would always show my love to you in many ways.
    But i guess it ment nothing to you,
    the fact that i never lied and always told the truth to you.
    I wish i could erase you from my memory!
    so i wouldnt live my life in total miseryy!!
    I wish i could erase ur name..Valerie...
    Its saddens me that you are a reality...
    It hurts me so to kno that i have to see,
    U never ever really cared about me..
    I was there for you in ur times of tears,
    I was always there to take away ur fears.
    But u left me with a broken heart, nd a messed up mind..
    Love is what i seek and i have yet to find!
    Im in a midst of total confusion..
    i feel the need for my deadly execution.
    my life is falling apart nd its the same,
    is it you or me that has to be blamed..
    for the way things are turning out today!
    i wish to God things didnt go this way!
    i would always show you endless affection,
    i loved waking up to see my reflection,
    knowing that i was loved for who i am, but all i see know are my imperfections.
    Im not a sinner i was the sweetes guy,
    I wish i couldve given u one last kiss good bye.
    The way things ended werent right,
    It ended up like a crazy fight...
    U were crying
    My insides were dying,
    i wanted to blow my head off and die,
    My last questions to u were why why why???
    Who in there right mind would do this to a person like me?
    God, did i deserve this? or did u fail to see!
    That unlike the rest i did good deeds,
    i always stayed away from bad things!
    but now the devil is tempting my soul,
    Ill do anything to make it whole!
    am i going in the right direction?
    my stress is slowly growing like a deadly infection!

    all i ask is for a response....
    because without that i am left feeling lost...


    -title:"Left in pieces" By Me.