• Why do I always feel so depressed, so sad, so lonely and so alone, I can't even remember the last time I was happy, all I know is that these emotions are slowly killing me.

    No-one seems to understands how I am truly feeling, no-one even knows the real me, but me, people think they know me, but they don’t, does that make sense to you, I can’t even explain to people how I am feeling deep inside, they wouldn’t get it.

    I don't know what I want in life, but I do feel that something is missing in my life, if only I could find the missing piece of the jigsaw, would I then be happy, I have no idea.

    I am so fed up with my day to day life, this can’t be it, there has to be more to life than this, but what.

    Sometimes I want to scream and shout and tell people to leave me alone, I want to tell them that I never want to speak or see another person ever again, but no sound ever comes out of my mouth, I have lost my voice.

    I want people to ignore me, I want them to leave me in a corner to die, how long do you think it will take someone to realise that I was missing and to realise that they were too late to save me, would I be miss, does anyone really care about me.

    Sometimes I want to run away and never come back, as if running away would somehow fix this empty void that I feel inside me, but where would I run too.

    All I know is that every day it is getting harder and harder and it has even become a struggle to even get out of bed, I want to lie there forever and never wake up.

    I am fed up in having to put on a brave face every morning and having to hide behind this mask that I wear daily, why can’t people except me as I am and deal with it, so what if I am moody and depressed this is the real me.

    Why must I pretend to be happy, pretend that everything is ok, do you know how hard it has become for me to walk around with a cheerful expression on my face and a fake smile, when all I want to do is walk around miserable and look sad.

    Deep down the real me is slowly dying bit by bit, I want to go into a deep, deep sleep and never wake up ever, am I being selfish and cruel for thinking this way, who knows.

    Why am I in so much pain and why do I feel this way, I wish someone could tell me the answers to my question, then maybe I could change the way I feel, or have I left it so late that I can never change.

    Please tell me how to stop these tears from falling from my face, how much can a person cry in a day and why don’t these tears ever run dry.

    Looking at my reflection in a mirror, I can see my soul reflection staring back at me, I do not like what I see, nor do I recognise this person staring back at me, who are you and where did I go.

    Where and when did I become this way, if only I could pinpoint the exact time, date and year, would I change it, if so how would I change it and what would I do differently.

    Life has become one big disappointment to me, it is not what I expected life to be, where has all my dreams and all my hopes gone.

    All I know is that I can’t take life anymore, I have decided that I have had enough.