• A slow sense of leaving fills my heart. Like watching the beautiful snow melt before your eyes as petals fall from the cherry blossom tree. The petals in the snow. So beautiful yet so brief. The petals will be carried away by wind and the snow will melt. Oh and that dreaded sense of leaving falls upon me. The thoughts rush through my mind. I feel so much I do not understand. And I know that with you I had everything. Like a spoiled child that has everything he could ever desire and more yet he deserves none of it. And what a confusion that overwhelms my mind. A confusion of emotions. For how is it that when you caused me pain I only wished what was best for you, even if it killed me? I hoped and prayed for it. They say it is better to have loved and lost, then to have never loved at all. Those words are so true. Even though the pain sometimes makes it seem not so. For that brief moment it’s pure heaven. Then when it’s over for a moment it’s hell. Now, by vision blinded, my mind distorted, my feelings confused, I sit thinking watching the snow melt and the petals blow. All good things must come to and end. I would rather let this one stay. You know you have heaven and hell within you, my love. Like the petals in the snow. And I do love you.