• To hope so much then be broken down to peices. To never hope and pray and wish but to be put down to shatters. I feel as if I'm a abandoned kitten out in Seattle. Lost inside the biggest of worlds. Without someone to feed me, love me teach me, or cuddle me. To be isolated in a tragic word. To never feel love when your loved ones have left you alone forever. When only god loves you. Even being rescued wouldn't make me forget the heart wrenching PAIN. I'm still alone. I'm still dead.
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    I'm still lost. I'm still fallen down.
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    I can't find my way back. I'm not getting back up. I've gone down. I'm emo. And I don'e deserve to live if my life hurts to keep living through. I want to die.
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    So why won't someone kill me physically like I'm dying inside mentally? Don't you people understand I've GIVEN UP!!!
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    I'm not worth it, I'm just not worth it. He knows that AND I know that. So ******** kill me already, I'm not that inportant! One soul gone, woopdy-doo. You all have lives with people who love you. I don't. My heart is about to pop andmy body about to fall farther.
    I'm about to die.
    The hope that I wished for is gone...the miracle I prayed for has been rejected...My faith has been blown away in the wildest winds of someone elses love. This thought of me being invisible to him...it hurts!!!!! Someone has his heart while he has theirs. But how can he live with two hearts. He must be having fun breaking mine. Do I really exist to him? Am I really here? Does he think I'm dead? He must 'cause he sure acts like it. I'm a shadow now. Great.
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    I'm gonna die...alone....and sad.....and heart broken and depressed....quietly....and cying......Yet sadly I've fallen in love....And I'm lost (forever)


    -kit......1/26/09