• I've been looking back on my life. Remembering friends who have found me, and of friends I've found. The friends I lost, and friends who've lost me. Moments photographed, and not photographed. Crushes formed, and then broken. Childhood fantasies soaring through my imagination, only to be landed by the weight of reality. Wishing for sanity to make a comeback, while knowing it never existed. Religions for love of all turned to love of money. Marriage vows made only to be broken. Wondering if this promise land is only a lie. Watching people killing people, breaking hearts, stealing, and lying. Feeling apathetic empathy from the glutenous to the starving, the rich to the poor, the attractive to the repulsive, and the saved to the abandoned. The guilty sacrificing the innocent. Wondering if this world was made for the rich, even though the poor fill it. Pondering if humans are the trophy of the god, or a mistake of the gods. Hoping that this chaos will make sense some day. This is what goes through my mind as I stare off into space, and when asked what's wrong I'll just say "Oh, just thinking."