• Ever since i was in elemetry school i was always getting teassed and picked on so i wouldn't talk to no one around me at all the only people i would talk to were the teachers b/c i felt like they were my friends upon other people.I was older then most kids since the 1st grade when i got held back b/c the teachers thought i needed more "help" with my learning skills so as the years went by i was still to my self and quiet as always.But when i got to the 4th grade i was already 12 years-old baisicly mabey 2-3 yrs older then some of the other kids.i would pretend to make my self sick because of people teassing me and all my mom and doctor and counsler would tell me was "you have to ignore them" but i couldn't because i just wanted to be left alone and when i was left alone i wouldn't cause trouble.But now that i'm 15 and still in middle school in the seventh grade insted of a 10th grade high school student thats even worse b/c there is barly any kids around my age to talk to and when i do talk to them its like they look at me like i'm crazy.And when i ask for help from my classmates when i alredy helped them when they needed it most they either push me away or help me or give me the wrong awnser on purpose...and i rrly don't even ask for mutch.....i rrly don't but i noticed 2 weeks ago during the weekends i started haveing suicidal thoughts and wednes day i told my 1st hour math teacher and she told the councler and every thing but i find its getting worse 'cuz i'm not going to sleep at all.my body hurts with sudden pains, i feel worthless and guilty,and you can probbablly name anything that pops up in your mind and tell me in a question and thats is what i probbabbly will feel....well thats basicly half my whole life "story".But i will wright more later in the futuer.

    will right another time,
    care from,
    XxCoOkI_LuVeRsXx=(courtney lynn hargrave)