• Theres a girl sitting in dark room, drinking vodka straight on the bottle. She makes a face when alcohol burns her throat in the way down. this girl havent eated anythink in two days so the alcohol affects quickly. Becide her is a razor blade, wich seductive shine the light of the moon, like begging her to press it up against her fragile skin.

    Girl sits in the floor of her room, moon creating nasty shadows in the floor, coloring the room ghostly...
    This was the last place wich the girl ever sees. The briliand death, the end of hers horrible life.

    The think why this girl has comed to her decision is two painfull to remember. But still she sees it everytime she closes her eyes...
    The girl gloses her eyes and sees the vision ones again...


    *flashback*

    I walked my way to my fiances house. His mom opens the door and he just looks like she has seen a ghost.
    ´´Hi, is Anthony home?´´ i asked from his mom.
    the womens clear her throat and looks like she is hiding somethink from me. Guetly she speaks to me.
    ´´No, Anthony isn´t home right now, i say him that he comes to see you when he is back or you can call him too if you want.´´ the women mumbels to me.
    Then all of sudden i hear a giggle from upstairs. I fast shove his mom beside the door and run in upstairs to my fiances room. I open the door and see my fiance whit another women, naked in his bed, twitshed to each others.
    I gasped and my fiances head snaps up. hes eyes is wide open from shok that he sees me in the doorway.
    Tears forming in my eyes i take my wedding ring off my finger and throw it in the bed.
    ´´If this is what you want, dont lett me disrupt anythink, please continue... i dont want to see you never again! You can give this to who ever you want but i dont want it!´´ i had shouted to him and walked away, tears falling down to my cheeks.
    He tried to tell me somethink but i didint want to lissen it. I didnt want to hear a single lie from him anymore.

    *End off flashback*


    I opened slowly my eyes and taked another sip from the vodka bottle i had.
    Tear falled down my cheek ones again. I shined loudly for the memory.
    No one had missed me in two weeks. I had sitted in my room last two weeks just doing nothing els but thinking.
    There was so many questions in my head: Why did this happen to me? Wasnt i enought to her? How long had this goed on behind my back?... and many other questions.
    First two day i cryed after him but then i desited that no one was worht of my tears...

    I had goed true so much evil and horrible thinks wich peoples never should go tru. Everyone had hated me since i had born and the only reason i notised this to end, was committ suicide.

    I drinked the rest off the bottle and set the bottle down. I lifted the razor blade up and watched it a second and set it against my wrist. I closed my eyes and pull the blade through my wrist...
    It didnt hurt that much. This wasnt helping the pain i had inside me, the pain what my heart carried. I opened my eyes and watched how the blood flowed out where i had deebly cutted my skin. Now i had found one reason to why i could see all my veins in my wrists, they where there for such a situations like this.

    I placed the blade agaits my other wrist and cutted it too. this time making it deeper than the other one was. Tears falled down my cheaks. I cried and watched the blood spilling to floor...

    My eyes shuttered and darkness slowly taked me away from this cold and unfair world. I was happy now. My life was pointless and now it had the most buetifull end i could ever imagine. Die becouse you just didnt had the strainght to hold on anymore. You had finally gaved up.

    The girl who never stopped trying ~ Finally gave up