• I dont know why, but I keep doing these things, and I dont know why. am I mad? insane? out of my mind? do i have multiple personalities? I find that when i do these things, I always change my mind in between, and I have no idea what im doing. my eyes are heavy, my heart is bleeding, and my mind is clouded. why is this happenening to me? what can I do? I dont know what. but I know, that in the end, we are all alone. there is no love, there is only words, there is no truth, there are only molded lies. my life is not my own, my life is an experiment gone wrong. If I am truly an experiment, then perhaps I added in a horrible in gredient, that would spoil and rue all others. perhaps, my life has been poisoned by my own hand. how could this happen? I can be nice, I can be sensitive, I can be helpful, funny, happy, and a good person. but, I can also be mean, dark, evil, disgusting, mentally repulsive, murderous, conniving, scheming, uncaring, and a horrible person. but, which is the real me? will I never know? or will I forever be a mix of unstable ingredients, doomed to one day explode, in a horrible splattering of my life?