• okay maybe my life isnt perfect. i have been accused for many stuff. my mom passed away. i fought alot. i wasnt exactly the "perfect" child.

    my name is colleen. and im 12. my mom passed away when i was 11. and on easter morning. my heart was torn. and i felt like my life was over. i mean, i do have a dad, but im that close with him. and i have lots of aunts, but they werent like my mom.

    when i was born, we were really wealthy, because my dad owned the beaverly hills rent a car company. unfortunatly, my uncle screwed the business up, so we lost everything. so we moved from a huge house to a town house to a apartment with one room to a real apartment to town house to a bigger town house then to an apartment. i dont really care where we lived, and how people talks bad about us. but i didnt like the fact my family wasnt helping us out. and when we asked for a LITTLE bit of help. we didnt get any. and my dad tried his best to keep us happy.

    until that day, marck 23, 2008. i was lying in bed and i heard my mom's cousin. saying "ashley.. ashley" he repeated and repeated. i got annoyeed so i went downstairs, and there was my mother lying on the couch. she wouldnt wake up, and she has bit her tounge so when we tried to make her drink water, it wouldnt go through, and my auncle and ant said she was just sleeping. and then i called 911. they came to our house, and asked what has happened. and while i was crying i heard everyone scream. by everyone i mean the people in the 2 fire trucks. 2 ambulance. 4 police cars. my mom has passed away. and my mom always said that she wasnt gonna live long cuz she had cancer and always had sickness.

    from that day i regretted everything i did. i felt like it was my fault that mommy died. that my family lost its wealth. and that my dad was in a bad shape. my dad had headaches and was very sick. he couldnt work...

    every nite. i would cry i leave my mom a voice message on her cell phone. u may think thats wierd, but that was a way i believed i can keep in touch with her.

    my dad is a big karma believer. and he always tells me. "colleen hold on tight., we will make it on day" "its soon colleen, god is with us" "dont worry. we will be happy" "flip a new page in ur book, but take all the good memories with u"

    so now i believe in him. and god, and waiting for that day..

    one day it will all come true.