• I glance over my sholder to check that she's not there....correction, even if he has her face that's still not Xin. ...Oh gods, what have I done? Just because of that Seal doesn't mean I had to tell them that,...does it? Ugh, i feel weak, but why? Why now must my body revolt, I've been running for days...or is it weeks? Gods, the world is spinning, somebody please make it stop! it's getting colder, darker too. Maybe I should rest, I'm bound to fall soon anyway. If the Seal hadn't broken though ....I'd still have to run; I broke the rules didn't I?
    I need to stop soon, if I give out I'll waste more time than if I just take a break, ...right? wait! what was that? oh for the love of..that step.... it's her...isn't it? i glance again, and sure enough a streak of orange, like fire...no, fire doesn't chose who it kills, nor does it run like that. god i hope thats just him...it's better than facing her again. i can kill him, after what he did to mama and papa, hmph, i wont even think twice about it, ...or would i?

    NO! not now! why would my body chose now of all times to fail me?! god, no, please! i can't stand it anymore, this running like a scared little brat! a flash of white in the corner of my vision...is it anouther trick of the light? but wait isn't it night time? ugh, i should find someone to beg for food about now...how long has it been since i've had more than an onigiri to eat? i think a week? maybe more? whay isn't she/he here yet? i can't even move anymore, nor can i run anouther mile! god my check hurts, but why? i wish i knew what i look liked right about now..HA! i wonder if thats why they havent attacked, my blood coloured hair probly looks gray or brown by now, wonder if my eyes have dulled as much as my hands have? besides its not like him to just let someone live longer than is needed, not a traitor anyway. funny, isnt it? i've been so obsesed with being loyal all my life, not disobaying a word, and to think one moment could break all of that? ugh, that pain in my stomach is back, but last time i ate i felt sick and streched...

    why is the world twistig like that? the stars look so far off, the moon seems disconnected. god im cold, this jackets getting to old, and my pouch is long since empty of ration pellets. hmm, what am i forgetting? ugh i can't think straight right now, where am i even at? how long have i been running? longer than a month? i think its june, and i started in may? but then why did the last village have a festival going on, summer festivals are in july, aren't they? kyaa, i need sleep, its getting dark anyway...or is that just me? hmm, this grass feels so nice, much better than the dirt of that cave. this feild seems so familiar though...what village is this?
    i can't seem to make fire come to me anymore, funny how easy it used to be. that warmth like molten rock that lay beneth my skin seems to have turned to icy. ahh, im cold, maybe nii-san won't be the death of me, maybe it'll just be this running like some scarred rabbit, trying so hard to escape the wolves. why can i see my self? it's like im floating in he air, but my body....me..im right there, huddled in the field, aren't i?
    nani? why am i blue, am i even breathing anymore? im shaking so badly, surely nii-san wouldn't kill me now would he? he's not crual as that, right? whats this? whats that sound, oh no, they're not here already! i have to get up, i have to run! but....whats taking them so long? and why...why is the head im looking at have mochi coloured hair, shouldnt it be orange? then who is that? don't i know them? ah, but they're warm, and they aren't trying to kill me..not yet anyway. baka, they must not realize who it is, if they did they'd leave me to this fate, its what a traitor deserves anyway. there can't be one person left who doesn't think that....not a sane person at least. i betrayed xin, nii-san, mama and papa,.....i deserve this , dont i? but....but they ARE warm, ...and they dont seem to relize who i am yet....i cant seem to talk anymore..or even move...my brath is almost completely stilled, and im sure my heart is too. ahh the darkness seems so peaceful...i think ill just sleep for a b... a bit longer........