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Third entry. I'm afraid its been quite a while since i last made an entry. Of course, I've always been a forgetful person. And sometimes its hard for me to find things to write about, so I simply wait for something to come to me. Though maybe, I should be searching for that thing instead of waiting around. Recently, I've been buying 35mm film cameras. I've always loved the thought of photography. In fact, I once wanted to make a career out of it. It seems my youth was filled with all of these dreams of being apart of a life filled with art and the like. Whether it be painting or photography, sculpting or even culinary. i have never wanted anything more than to be artistic, and yet, I can only seem to remain on a mediocre level in any branch. Maybe its because I try to do all of them. maybe I've become a "Jack of all trades and a master of none". I just want to excel to an adept level in the ones I fancy. Perferably music, visual art, photography and culinary. And I might be prone to trade culinary for dance. I would love to be able to dance like the pros. To woe a woman with every step. To sweep her off her feet. My girlfriend would truly love that, I believe. none the less, she still loves me so. Though I can't find a reason for her to. I'm nothing special, nor am I the best looking lad. Even so, she finds it in her heart to say that I have made her fall in love. I think about our future together, even though we've only been together a few months. I've had enough relationships in my life though. I'm tired, and want to settle down soon. I am 20 though, so it may not be for a few more years. I'm not so naive to think that after only a few months, we'd get married. But I can see it. In fact, I hope for it. She is everything I've been looking for. Strong, in body and mind, kind in heart, smart, funny, and oh so beautiful. She has eyes that could pierce the soul. And shes Romanian. And when she speaks it, I melt. She's got me on the hooks and yet she says she's blessed. She has no idea. I've been given a gift in the form of an opportunity in which two souls have met after waiting lifetimes for each other. I truly believe we've been waiting for each other since the world began. And i know that's not everyone's cup of tea, but i find happiness in the thought. I've digressed. ha! Maybe I could be a writer. Maybe words could be my paint and books my canvas. I cannot say this would be bad. I enjoy it. But, alas, I am still young. The world in front of me and a beautiful woman at my side, supporting me all the way. I am blessed. That is all for tonight. I think I'll get some rest now.
Until next time,
Cole