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Update,
Heh, should write some more poetry in here if I get the chance. Anyways, I'm just filling in the blanks of what's happened to me recently; so people stop thinking I'm dead or have deserted them. Alright, I've been through a lot of hell; which explains my absense of Gaia. I'm not doing so well - suffering from a cucussion, alser, trama, paranoia, annerexia, stress, depression, losing loved one's, being lied to, etc. Yeah, this is all kind of old stuff still new, but it's finally begining to take its toll on me. I would go to a hospital to get my conditions treated, but I don't have the money; so...I'm kind of screwed. >.< I know that may not seem funny to anyone, but I do have somewhat of a sick humor when it comes to myself. Anyways, like I said, I'm far from okay; and some people are only making my condition worse. I've been quite busy as well, doing things I know I shouldn't since it can cause serious harm to my health; but eh. I honestly don't know any more what exactly I should be doing. Trying to fight a hopeless battle and wait for my death? Or to just rot and die that way. No guarantees of my death, so don't worry too much about me. I'm sure there's at least something I could do for myself. Even as I type this, I feel like puking up blood and just passing out where I am sitting. Nothing too much is going good for me. Sure, I can't say everything is going bad, because that's not the case; just a lot of really important things to me are starting to slip up. I've read some pretty desturbing posts about something I'd rather not say; on account I'm starting to believe it as well. It's only a suspission, though, so I won't drawnder too greatly on this. Also, I've come to passing of some pretty horrible dreams. All of them do have an inner link of my current standards in life, which is scaring the hell out of me. I know, me scared? A new one, huh? Well, I am terrified. I don't even know what the hell I'm saying any more. I...just don't know.
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