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Its been a long long time since i've last been here.. maybe over 2 years.. as far as i could remember a lot of shitty things happened which im not very proud of and asking for forgiveness from the people i'm very sure i've hurt would be too much.. i hope everything in their lives is going well cuz their happiness is all that matters to me. im not really sure what i wanna talk about but maybe it will come to me while im on here. in the past i've been called a best friend, the best ever, a brother, a loved one but in these two years i realized that im not really that great cuz if i was all that i wouldn't have left and everything would've been like before. but im not really regretting going away... i had time to think and to grow up to realize my mistakes and to try even harder to be more caring. im not expecting to start talking with my old friends on here again cuz of all the stupid things i've done and all the hurtful words i've said to them.. but maybe ill be able to meet other interesting people too. i miss my old friends.. i tried forgetting all the bad things from the past.. but.. i cant.. its probably cuz the people from the past meant more to me then even i knew.. and thinking that it's best to let them go so that i would feel better and so will they was the right decision was actually a bad idea.. at least for me.. but still i hope that leaving was good for them. i miss you all and im really sorry.. v.v