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Feelings of pain

the poems that I wrote we're never lies...
They are my feelings
which is true even now.
But I did hide some feelings
Feelings I won’t tell anyone
Feelings I won’t let anyone touch
If you are going to try…
I don’t need you anymore
The wheels start to turn and turn…
..with a force that I can in no way resist…
and we drift apart…
you stay still but I’m pushed forward
Our hearts became so distant..
They’ll never be close again...
I don’t want that to happen
Please don’t be nice to me.
Don’t touch my heart…
Don’t heal my wounds...
I don’t want the scars to disappear...
My heart aches...it aches…it hurts so much.
But this pain is the only bond…left between you and me...
So I will cherish it…

Tell me my heart. What should I do? What will I be living for? Just to live on or to die?


Missing link

I’m only pretending that you’re still alive in my heart.
Your not here anymore…you died again inside me.
The amber colored you is so tender even in my memories
we we're alone in those woods.
You nodded when you smiled.
You pointed out the shooting stars.
Keep wounding me with these sharp pains
I couldn’t even say good-bye
Keep reproaching me.
Don’t ever forgive me
The dream I see at dawn is so sorrowful
When my heart finally beat
Tears rushed out and rocked my body
The chain that bound us
Rotted in the sea
To return Never
I don’t like you
Because you make me lonely
You make me weak
You cause sleepless nights
You stir up my heart you’re a bad person
You make it hard for me to be alone
If I decide to live, to reach out for tomorrow
I would be betraying you
I hurt you so
I can’t sing anymore
When I deserted you among the waves