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they say i love you. but they realy dont...
they say thay will die for you. but in the end it is you that die.
they say your cool and i love you. but you know that dosnt realy happen.
you wish for just one pearson to come into your life and change every thing.
it works.
your wish came true. but whant do you do when thay notice you.
what do you do.
do you kiss them. showing them how much you love them.
but you dont know.
you cant trust any one any more.
much less your self.
then the next meinut there gone.
and your all alone.
you think there mad at you.
latter you find they got hit bye a car and they realy did love you.
your parents then find out about every thing.
they hate you.
all your friend's find out and there gone.
no one care's but her.
you feel she is the only one that understand's you.
you wana kiss her. you wana hold her tight....
but you cant.
you wish that she noticed your love for her.
you try talking to her. showing her your love.
you cant.
you fear of hurting yourself and her.
your fear grabs ahold of you.
your shadow take's over.
you feel that there is no one left for you. the only one for you realy was the one you realy loved.
the next day there is a huge crash.
your family dosnt mind it.
they know you have anger problums and they think you just noked over your dressor.
an hour passed.
thay get worred.
the hour turns to a day.
they get concerned.
then the next day they go to check up on you.
there is a powerfull stench.
they opean up the door and....
there you are lying in a puddle of blood.
pistole in hand. and your just lieing ther.
a note in you hand but it is in blood.
thankfully thay can still read it.
it says.
Whare were you when i needed you the most. i was right there. if only you could have seen the trubble i was in. but it was right there and no one saw it. the one i loved. dead. wile me. being un noticed. vanished evan more. but i guss now. im better. im going to meat a man. a man named jessuse. he knows me. and he knows all about my problums. so i made this letter for you. you were the one i loved. but it's ok. it's my fault. i should have reached out to you. but i was affraid. affraid of getting hurt. and affraid of hurting you. i couldnt take the pain any more. i needed a new place to go. there was this pain in side me. like acide. but no one saw it. i kept it to my self. well kinda. i couldnt take people picking on me. calling me name's. makeing fun of me. i just couldnt do it any more. so i made this letter for you. you and all the one's who thought they new me. but they didnt realy. so yea. if only some one new the pain. new the hurt in side then maybe it could have stoped this frome happening. GOOD BYE. I LOVE YOU ALL EAVEN IF YOU DIDNT LOVE ME.

the next week. at the funeral. the gurl sees something. it's a ghoust. but it's not realy. it's the one that loved her. then anouther fugur shows up. she couldnt beleave it but it was jessuse. the man grabed the boy's hand and sead. follow me. i know were you will fit in. and they walked and slowly fadded away. the boy ran back and sead. do not fear. for i am in your heart. and keep this. a necklas appears in here hand. and still she is the only one that can see what is going on.

she saw there was some thing inscriped. it sead

THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE WITH ME. GIVEING ME THE STRANGTH I NEEDED. EVEN IF YOU DONT THINK YOU DID SOME THING. YOU DID. LOVE. JAKE. now that she see's how much he loved her. and she keeps it. now the boy fade's out and still just like in the begining. UN NOTICED. but happy now.