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Ski Club yesterday...I didn't get much snowboarding in, actually, because of the fact there was a frostbite warning and I sucked so badly at it. Prehaps I'm not really cut out for it; no wonder you don't see fat people snowboarding.

Otherwise, I had a lot of fun hanging out in the lodge; I met some nice friends of friends...

but afterward...heh. sweatdrop I was on Gaia and one of my friends was on...he said he would tell me if he really liked me or not, so I was pretty excited about the entire thing.

I asked him. Turns out, the only reason he doesn't like me is because I told everybody I thought he liked me.

It was my fault.

Oh god, the reason he doesn't like me anymore is because of me.

I want to die. I'm so embarassed. How am I ever going to be able to talk to him straight again?

I wish he hadn't told me anything in the first place. Why is it that after ski club I spend the rest of the night crying myself to sleep? *hits head on keyboard*

Worse yet, I'm feeling fat again. Really fat. Last night I felt like throwing up more than once, and if you knew me in real life you would know the significance.

I want to die.