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ok, so since I haven't done this for a while, I might as well make another.

I've gotten back in contact with my ex, and we've become good friends again, as far as I know, at least. I'm supposed to go hang out with her on the 28th of this month.
I've had three mental breakdowns over the last week, one because I was getting tired of seeing so many happy couples, and hearing so many people talk about their boyfriends or girlfriends. It just bugged me alot, and most of that was just repressed thoughts from over the last two years. What bugged me most..... was that my best friend (who has a boyfriend, by the way) told me that I have a lot of time to build a relationship, and that it didn't matter. But I've already experienced the wonderful emotion I know as love, and I have wanted to experience it again for the last two years....... she doesn't exactly know that, though.....
The second was because I was yelled at about three or four times in one day, and my mom was going crazy because the stupid brats weren't listening to her.
The third.....was the day right after that. I was doing perfectly fine, until my 6th period class, when I was sent to the counselor's office, and told I was being dropped down to Basic US history, and Basic English. I was told to talk to my english and history teachers, and see if there was any chance that I wouldn't be moved down. My english teacher...... basically told me that I deserved it, and that I had no chance of saving myself from dropping down to Basic English. I then went to Poetry Club, and broke down crying. I haven't cried for two years before that, and I know now that I was crying because I was being overwhelmed with so many bad crap, that I couldn't just take it with a false smile anymore.

so now, I'm being moved down to Basic English, and Basic US History, and I still gotta deal with seeing all the happy couples walking around....... whoo hoo.