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Okay, well, Forrest's 18th Birthday Party on Friday was pretty cool. A lot of my close friends I haven't been able to hang out with in a while were there, so it was fun. Forrest had awesome beverages...*cough*

Okay, now that that's over, let me vent (once again)

Well...

That first guy, I've given up on, and he has a girlfriend...

The second guy (my ex) is now dating one of my friends sweatdrop

The third guy.........I don't know what his deal is, but I don't really see myself with him...not really...

Guess what? sweatdrop There's a fourth guy. I've asked him out before and he said no, so I'm going to try supress my feelings until they go away. I'm terrified of rejection, which is why I don't make much effort to ask anyone out unless I REALLY like them or why I don't make much attempt to make friends outside of the circle I've created for myself. I don't know. *Sigh* And it's only high school, right? It shouldn't matter. But it does...to me. Oh well. I just hope I can find someone at college. Because guess what my biggest fear is? It's not of dying, or heights or anything like that...my biggest fear is that I'll never get married. Hopefully one day I can overcome that fear.