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Ehhh..... back to journals again.

As usual Lanie(me) managed to screw up any hope of a social life anywhere before she even has one. sweatdrop

That would explain why I like solitary games so much.

Adding that to my posts of usual uselessness and embarassment I have agreed with my many emotions(cliched, I know) that I officially suck.

Today's little serious posting disaster is almost as bad as something I did some weeks ago. Who can believe that a SINGLE misspelling can cause a truffle of confusion so big that I can laugh at myself only 200 years from now.

Perhaps reading 'The Big Book of How to Erase and/or Seclude Yourself from Everyone Else' was a good idea afterall. I don't get why I have to act so differently on the net than in real life. I amaze myself with my inner preppiness. It's just so sad though. I mean I'm always this quiet, shy, somewhat equal-rights-femenist and cold girl who just happens to be able to copy art styles from many people and combine them (which is not going to help me later on in life anyway) but that's not good if you want a social life. I'm rather depressing in real life complete with the whole secluded look. I just seem to spend so many minutes of my real life away from people reading romantic fan fiction when I don't really believe that love exists outside books and movies. I'm always so picky about things even though I can lie while holding on to a Bible(since I don't have a religion) Maybe the reason why Mary Sues bug me so much is that they are just so perfect with a perfect life and love that I envy them.

Yet when I'm online I'm like this person which no one really expects me to be. Annoying, preppy, bitchy about things, clumsy, stupid, etc., etc. When I post anything it looks like it was posted by some shallow b***h that has loads of money and act's all fake insecure to fool people. Unless I'm very much mistaken, people on the net doesn't usually tend to want to befriend some dumb prep.

Anyway that's my rambles for today.