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why do anything anymore?
why do somthing that wont matter the next minute of my life?
why do the things that push my friends in their own paths,while i dwindle down into a dark void killing amd hurting myself?
well i do these things so not to change.not to become worst than that iam already but, also because of this, i cannot become better.
i have split from the core and walk alone
with few catching my attention.
when they do,i hate them.
its just that they cause me pain from being around me all happy
and i cant stand happy anymore(i dont like the smiling. it hurts me.)