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Its been so long. It seems like an eternity, since I last looked around. Blinded by colors, streeking across my vision. Binds holding my arms tightly together, with the force of narture. Chains weighing me down to the ground heavy as a burden.

I stare, while standing, broken beaten and shattered. Silence surounds my frozen ears, sorrow filled dried up tears upon my icy cheeks. The beating of my heart, it's ever so slight. Dulled down to a silent lullaby for my tortured filled nights and dawns.

Sudden winds, like the wings of an angle, rip away the colors, icy white and blue blind me as my vision now restored. My tears warmed up by the warm sun that now shines down upon my chained form. An icy land I have been upon, snow covering what use to be living. As if frozen in time

Far off I see you there, upon the fresh white snow. Holding out your arms, calling out to me with a silent smile. I try to obey the command of his heart, but the weights of my burden holds me still. Unmoving, as if stubborn to let me free.

Pulling at my chains with the force of a mending being, I feel myself finally moving. The weight liftens as I move through the wind, snow melting upon my warm smiling face.

I see you now. Smiling, still holding out your arms, waiting for me. Tears gather, as my vision become clear, they begin castcading down my red cheeks as my now free arms swing back and forth.

I take in deep breaths as the weight disappears and my body moves through the now melted snow, racing towards you. My heart calls upon the wind, giving me wings to reach you. Your dominating form within grasp. I reach out, your arms still out waiting for me. My heart beating against my chest as if it were alive and had a force of its own.

Only then did you disappear. Fading from my newly freed existance. As if the wind had swept you away. Now I be on the ground, tears of joy are now once again tears of sorrow. Pulling back my anguished filled body, I scream out, letting all the pain explode out from within.

Upon hours I cried, now the tears have dried upon the icy cheeks. Snow begins to fall once again fall upon the land of the living. My heart painfully beats slower and slower till the familiar lullaby beats against my stilled form.

Once again, silence stings my warms ears. All sound disappeared with you. All life left. All beings that may have made a sound to give me hope, or even a fraction to mend.

My sorrow, anguish, and hate pull at my being as chains wrap themselves upon my cold being. Pulling with fury, my body becomes silent to its harsh commands.I stand, feeling my wounds become binds around my arms pulling them tightly, painfully together without mercy.

Colors dance around my blurry vision, blinding me from all the icy snow falling upon my form. Beaten, shattered, broken, never to be mended. Once again I am swallowed up into my prison.

Dispare, I feel it wash away as I close my eyes, the colors attacking me from all ends. Never again shall I wake up. For all there will be, is more pain. Once again I shall sleep. Never to rise, never to feel the comfort of your arms holding. Now I'm all alone, just like last time. Pain. Thats all I feel.