Dear Pheniox,
This is probably going to come as quite a shock to you, in fact, if you didn’t already know me, I am pretty sure you wouldn’t believe this at all.
Can you recall your earliest memories of me? For the longest time I couldn’t remember how I meet you. All I knew was that we were both in the same orphanage and all I can recall is feeling glued to you somehow. I always felt deep down that I had to protect you, and I never knew why… Why would a five year old have such feelings rooted in her for a three year old boy? You would think that there would have to be some inciting incident for something like that…
Well, I can remember now.
I think it was you that described it to me once, that my head was filled with too many things and that’s why I kept quite a lot. Turns out there are more things inside of my brain then I ever thought possible.
I had an entire life time stashed away.
Turns out a lot of bad things happened to me the first time I unlocked my unique abilities. I ended up in a coma for 2 years, battling with part of my unconscious mind in the dream realm. By the time I woke up my life was gone… all the details of it are not important, but there are some that you should know about.
Before I lost a huge chunk of my life, I was engaged to be married to a local merchant in Iownway by the name of Daven Lamon. His family was quite wealthy, but that’s not why I feel in love with him. When I woke up from my extended stay in the dream realm, turns out he was married to another women… Lav Lamon the evilest person I have ever known… or maybe that was just my prospective on it. He had thought I was dead… was quite a shook to him when he found out I wasn’t.
I was going to leave the both of them alone… but turns out my former lover decided that he wanted to break it off with his new wife and get back together with me… His new wife Lav however loved that idea so much that she outright killed Daven…
Any sanity I had gained back was lost after that. I learned that Lav had many ties to one of the underground crime organizations in Iownway… so I went on a murder spree. Everyone connected to her had to die, most of the deaths were quick an painless… except for hers.
I had gotten everyone save for one person she kept sending money to, an old lady living in the woods not to far from town. I went there, planning to finish her off and then take my own life… but I found something there I never thought I would find.
You.
Turns out that Lav the women I hated so much had gotten pregnant and hidden it from her husband, probably as a form of control she was planning on tapping into later. She was paying the women there to watch and take care of you Phenoix.
After that I changed. I already decided my life didn’t matter any more, but now yours did. I hated myself though and everything I had done. I couldn’t live with the pain… but I could lock it away… far away in the back of my mind and use my new powers to start over.
Took me over a year to get it all sorted out, but I did. I was reborn as four year Linn, and I made sure we were both sent to the same orphanage together. Kind of horrible to find out that I was the one that got your mother and father killed… I’ll understand if you never forgive me for the things I have done in the past. I don’t even think I can forgive myself…
Linn.
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