Yup...that is what describes my mood right now. I'm bored and angry, caring and creative. I've been drawing peoples avatars for gold just to get my mind off everything going on, but it's not working. *sigh* I really don't know what to do...I can't do anything really. I can care for my best friend in her time of need, help heal her wounds and scars. But yet, I can't get my mind off what has happened no matter what I do.
I just feel so bad. And you know, it's one of those situations where you just...wish you were there to prevent this from happening, but you weren't. But then you don't wish you were there because it could have been you in his clutches. *sigh* I dunno...maybe I should just stop worrying about it so much.
But the more I try to stop worrying, the more I worry. What would have been like if she hadn't been able to fight back? I would have lost the one I care about most and I would have never forgiven myself for not being there to help. But then I, more than likely, be more upset because I would have seen him do it. And also, if he didn't come out of it and I was there, I could have been lost too. That scares me also.
*sigh* I hate the unfairness of life sometimes. I mean, once, just once, why can't life be fair to everyone? *sigh* Oh well, hopes a dreams and dreams are wishes and most wishes never come true...
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The Lies She Wrote
Lost within the deep confines of her mind, the girl wrote about her life as best she could. Despite the fact that over half of what she wrote was a total and complete lie. [no, that doesn't apply to me...]
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