That's how long it has been since I last wrote a journal entry.
In all fairness I'd lost the account and had the thought that today I should try to get it back and... It worked!
If a lot can happen in an hour, can you imagine how much can happen in the span of almost 14 years?
I'm an adult now. An adult on a website that used to be cool back when I was still in high school, when I had no idea about responsibilities, relationships, work, taxes, loans, and... Real life.
I suppose that I am still sort of a kid at heart and I was never able to commit to being a serious adult doing serious adulting things. sweatdrop
Since I wrote all those entries, I've moved from Panama to Peru, have a career in translation and interpretation and have found out a lot of valuable information regarding who I am.
I gained a lot of weight, then I had surgery and lost some, and then I gained some again, and all of it served only to show me that people will be shallow forever and that I don't really give a crap about my physical appearance as long as I'm happy with it. My depression defined me for a while there, and then it... didn't. I shrugged a lot of stuff off, like a selkie.
Moving to Peru made true the single most important dream I ever had, meeting Joel and living with him. If someone had told me that one day I would make my dreams come true and that I would be with the person I had loved for so many years already back then, I don't think I would've believed a word that came out their mouth, sweatdrop but I did. I really did, and on some days I cannot believe it, then on others I feel extremely proud of myself, and on some days I feel like I regret leaving it all behind to move to a whole other country by myself.
The nostalgia coming back to this website is incredible. A lot has changed but at the same time hasn't. It still feels familiar, and I'm glad I am back. I hope I can keep journaling like this for some more time.
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