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I know that when your heart is broken you get lost in the darkness & pain. You don't really feel or want to day anything you normally do. You also think of hurting yourself so you can feel something other then sadness and lose. That isn't the anwser though and sometimes even if you think of that you realize it's not the answer and that you couldn't feel it anyway. You think that nothing could hurt worse then the pain of your broken heart. What happens when you end up breaking someone elses heart and your own? Well I guess you feel guilt as well as the other things I've said. You also wonder if what you did was right. Different things can cause you to break someones heart and your own. Sometimes you do it because you have been locking things away for so long and hiding your true self that you get to the point where you don't seem to feel any emotions at all. You don't feel love, happiness, joy or kind. You just feel anger and sadness, but you also feel cold. I guess this is what has drove me to break someone elses heart as well as my own. I just hope and pray that they realize that I didn't just break their heart. That's probably hard to hide though when both of you are finding it hard to let go, so you're doing it slowly to try and ease the pain. Well I guess I'll end things with a conclusion that I have come to. No matter how hard you try things always get worse before they get better.