What can you do when you have to sit by and watch someone you love die? How much can you take and deal with before you've gone mad or you're pushed over the edge. How long can your heart last before it starts to ache? How long before you break?
These are all questions I have as I deal with as I sit by and watching my grandfather die. Always wishing there was something more you or the doctors could do. You begin to wonder how much longer? Is this going to be the last day I have with him? While he finally out of pain and no longer suffer soon? Will he go peacefully? How will I handle things when he is gone? Of course I won't really know the answers to these questions until he is gone. Then I'll be able to answer them all. Hopefully then I can help others if they need it. If they are going through something like this as well. I guess until then though I'll continue to take things one day at a time because that is all I can do.
 blueblackrose · Mon Jul 24, 2006 @ 03:34am · 0 Comments |
