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Haha I have just come back to this after forgetting I made a super serious commitment
lmao
Ok Rebecca
I am 22 now I guess, my life be bussin', after looking back on what I wrote - despite it feeling like a life time ago I was super sad. I got me some meds now 150mg sertraline or you Americans' call zololft and bro i feel so alive.

I miss old friends I don't speak to anymore, she was a really good friend and person; had her flaws and a lot of it out of her control. I just got so emotionally burnt out because I wasn't dealing with any of that correctly at the time, either.

no more Amy in my life either brother, what a piece o' s**t.
With peace and love of course but yeah there's a difference in personality type there one has intent to be a b***h - one was just mentally ill and didn't know how to deal with it.
Often I think back to the other girl though, I really miss our friendship, it was difficult and a see saw of emotions, a lot - but she was there for me as myself and visa versa. Hope maybe one day we can rekindle a friendship when we're both a bit older despite the difference in locations.

Dunno a tonne of failed relationships in this time and a good career c:
I have too much fun with my own company now a days anyways.
I have a kind of boyfriend thing called Chris right now, 26 and I am absolutely swept of my feet with this man. He's so respectful of me and although we're quite literally opposites in everything, me and him have such good chemistry and just.. click. I have never experienced that before be it lust or infatuation I have never got someone so much before and even vaguely feel the reciprocation.

Learning to drive manual right now too.
Switching up my job from the food and hospitality scene to reception/security work which to me sounds ideal compared to the fast paced stressful and underpaid environments' that is food.

The more I learn to love myself the more it seems people come to be against me. I also don't know whether I am growing to be highly cynical?
Meh. CYNICAL IT IS!