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________Ok,back when I was younger,I was really....er,weak,you could say.In 4th grade I had a strong fear of bees,along with needles,and I remember the other kids mocking me for it.I remember sharing a room and bunk bed with my little brother,who was in 2nd grade.I was on the top bunk because he got up more often and it scared me to be on the bottom bunk because he'd move in his sleep and sway the beds.I can remember one night,looking out the window at, like ,midnight and seeing a full moon.The sky was dark,and there were bad people outside,but it was ok,because I was safe in my room in the house.It was a Sunday I think.I remember a car pulling up to the house,and I couldn't recognize it in the dark.I remember seeing a large dark human shape,like a shadow, exit the car and come slowly toward the house.I can remember the fear of it coming and killing me and my family,or leaving one of us alive,probably me because I was the only one awake.I remember hiding under the blankets and praying for safety,hoping the shadow wouldn't take me away.
________Then I remember thinking about the other kids teasing me about the fear of bees.I remember thinking the shadow looked like Mom,and that, maybe, if I went peacefully with the shadow people,they would treat me nice and I would save my family.I remember climbing down the bed and slowly walking through the house toward the door.I kept trying to look brave.I remember hiding when the door opened,and feeling total shock when my mom came through the door in her work uniform.This was the first time I knew about her working graveyard shift.It might have been 3rd grade.