I apologize ahead of time for this emo-y entry.
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______ I just...Lately I've been thinking a lot about my future,'love',and reality.I feel like I have my future spread out on a dark surface,and it's transparent.Like I'm taking on too little of a challenge,or something.However I don't need more stress in my life.
_______ I dunno what to do about love.I joke around with my friends,can give them all helpful advice,but I don't quite see how to 'get a boyfriend' or whatever.The only person I've ever confessed to didn't reply(he's on here v.v ) and I guess that makes me feel unwanted.Sometimes I think I need a hero,a knight in shining armor,to surround me in a warm feeling commonly called love.But there's never one there,and I always tell myself to be my own hero.It's not working >:T.
______ Reality is warping a little for me.It seems so unreal that I only have probably 2 months left with my mom until she dies a much-stress-causing death.It's also unreal feeling that,several years from now,I plan to live in Austria,marry a nice German guy,maaaaybe have a kid or two,and die happily somewhere other than my homeland,both in blood and birth sense.
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