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He came up behind me as I made my way down the hall between classes. Just before I turned the courner to my fashion design class his hand made rough from shop class pulled me back to face him. Eyes pleading for me yet again I knew what was about to happen. It had been like this for the last three months since I caught him in his own web of lies.
"Evelynn. Please don't tell me that it's over. I wouldn't give up on you like you have on me."
"Don't say if I were you, or tell me what to do," I replied angrily, "cause you're not me Derick."
"Why must you be like this? You've become such a cold-hearted wrench lately. I told you I was sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you.
"I am not the girl you thought I will be. I will never be so get over me! I can slay my own dragons and dream my own dreams."
"Please don't do this. My life with you means everything so I won't give up that easily," he pleaded.
"Then why her," I whispered, "I just can't believe I fell for such a blackened heart. You played me for a fool and used me right from the start! She's what? Prettier than me? Smarter than me? For as long as I can remember it's that according to you I'm stupid, I'm useless, and I can't do anything right." The volume of my voice rose with each word as I remembered how he would tell me just how useless and stupid I was when I wouldn't give in to his teenaged needs.
He pushed me against the wall. His six foot three frame towering over my modest five foot five one. A dangerous glare shone in his chocolate eyes as his response held a sharp edge, "I'm not a saint that's easy to tell, but guess what honey you're ain't no angel."
"Don't even start Derick. Lately all of the dirt you've been throwing my way, it ain't so hard to take and how I wish I could have tied you up in my shoes and make you feel unpretty too. Cause the pain never completely goes away."
A tear slipped from my lashes leaving a black trail behind from my mascara. "Every time I'm through, Derick, it's because of you."
"If you only knew how many times I've counted the words that went wrong. Let's start over. I'll try to do it right this time around."
"It's too late for us." I moved to push him away but his hands stopped mine and held them against his chest.
"It's not too late. It's never too late! I need you by my side, don't know how I'll survive. I'd sacrifice my beating heart before I lose you. For what if I never hold you? Or kiss your lips again? I never want to leave you, for a day without you is like a year without rain."
"This life with yours is filled with hurt when happiness doesn't work. You've torn me apart at the seems and my dreams have turned to tears. I'm not feeling this situation. The life I think about is so much better than this."
Derick took two steps backwards his head hung low. "Are we forever to be apart then?"
"Yes Derick. You need to stop chasing me."
"I'll never give up. I told you that I'm sorry. I made a stupid mistake. But if you want to play it like a game then come on! Come on, let's play cause I rather waste my time pretending then have to forget you for one whole minute!"
The bell for class rang and I turned from him. "I have to get to class. You've already made me late. Nothing you can say will change my mind. So save it for her. I'm not going to listen to you reasons or please just take me backs. We never were right, don't waste your breath. You crashed and you're on your own tonight. And maybe in the darkest night, If my memory serves me right. I'll never turn back time. Forgetting you; but not the time."
"You can run away and try to find a safe place you can hide but in the end nothing else matters and I will win you back," he said with the most determined expression on his face.
"I'm not to blame if your world turns to black from chasing what you can never have. this is you paying the price for your betrayal. There may have been a time when I would give myself away but you saw to it that, that would never happen. Now goodbye to you. Good bye to everything that I knew since I was thirteen."
"Evelynn!" He could have stood there and screamed for me to come back to him all the wanted. I couldn't have cared less. I walked away pausing only for a moment to turn my face towards him one last time.
"You know what Derick? When you see my face I hope it gives you hell for never again will it look on you favorably. Because when we were together it didn't feel right at all. Then when I'm alone I feel so much better and when I'm around you I don't feel." I turned back down the hall continuing on my way to class.
Behind me I could hear his final plea, "So much for my happy ending then? Evelynn I need you now. I'll bleed my heart out just for you."
'Thanks for the memories Derick,' I thought sadly opening the classroom door. 'Even though they weren't that great. And I hope you had the time of your life for we never were meant for do or die. I'm already gone.'
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