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I wanted to tank Hellfire Ramparts on my new druid, but I haven't tanked in so long that I'm nervous. I keep thinking that the people in my group will tell me I'm not ready to tank it or that my gear is crap or something... I was going to push the "find group" button, but I started feeling weird. My heart is beating fast (it's slowing down now) and my hands are sweaty. My head feels strange, and it's making me see things kind of how I feel when I'm about to faint: the edges of my eyes slowly start to black out. Am I having a mild panic attack? :/ Just today I was thinking to myself that maybe my "problems" aren't so bad because I don't have panic attacks like other people who feel this way, but I am very aware that something is happening right now. Could I have been ignoring it all this time? Or maybe I am escalating into a new level. I don't know... But I hope I can get some help soon.
I don't want to feel that my social problems in real life are going to interfere with my online life. I used to be so comfortable playing WoW, but I took a ~two month break and now I feel foreign and unwelcome. Which is stupid, because I haven't even talked to anyone since I started playing again. I am particularly bothered by this because tanking was one of the few things that I've always been confident about; but now I'm scared... ?