Diary,
I smiled today. I closed my eyes and felt once again the peace I have been craving. I felt soft and like a cloud, drift away into the sky. I wish I were Leon, then I would fly my jet all around and stare at the sky and look at the world. I realized how small I truly am. I am merely a small speck on a giant painting that we call "The Universe". I feel small.... small as a period here in this sentence. I looked up at the sky the other night and felt as if my soul was being gently taken out of me. I do recall the sensation my eyes litterally tearing up. I cried while staring at the sky and it was not out of sorrow, it was at the realization of how never-ending the sky is, never-ending world, how there is so much more out there. When I usually drive in my Aunt's car, I simply stare out the window at the streets. Now I stare at the sky and feel like... its like the sensation of being underwater without having to hold your breath: freely moving, no gravity, reaching new heights. This feeling is wonderful. What bothered me last night was while getting ready for bed, I looked in my room in the pitch black and I felt like as if there was an evil pressence in there and this morning I've seen nothing but black shadows in my room. Darting across the wall and the floor. It's odd. It's not my eyes, I swear it to be true. But everyone probably thinks Im crazying if they heard what I said. I have learned that once you realize that there is so much more out there, you will feel a certain sensation and once you do you will pass forward into your intuitive self. I never realized how deep the world can be and how my soul is. This entry I need end. there is not much more to say. I mean the words will continue to flow but unfortunately I cannot describe allt he sensations I feel.
Until another day beckons,
Farewell~
NakatamiHigurashi Community Member 
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