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story of my life: part 1
when i hear about love, its almost always from girls. guys don't seem to talk about love very much, thats why i think of myself as kinda weird. when i was in 7th grade, i thought i fell in love with a girl named caroline. I'm still not even sure if it was love or infatuation, but when i hear about love it sounds alot like what i was experiencing. i felt sad without her, time seemed to fly when i was with her, i didn't care about her flaws, and i was constantly thinking about her. the only problem was she didn't like me back. ever since then i've been wanting to feel that feeling again. i've never had an actual girlfriend that i really liked and she liked me back. this next one is long and complicated. the 2nd person i thought i loved was a girl named Talisa. we met in Gaia Towns. we gave each other pictures of our selves and exchanged phone numbers and we hit it off pretty well. we texted for 2 days until i told her i really liked her. she told me she really liked me too, but we couldn't really be together because she lived in california. even though we lived on 2 different sides of the country (me being in florida) she still called me her boyfriend and i still called her my girlfriend. we texted everyday and we didn't get tired or bored of each other. we sometimes talked on the phone too. she told me about her feelings and i told her about mine. there were some problems though. 1 was that i couldn't talk anyone about my girlfriend and that i met her on the internet. i told a few people and all of them accused Talisa of being some old pervert ***** or something. it got me really sad and mad so i told no one about it. she said she told her friends about me and that they were fine with it. another problem was the most obvious one - that we couldn't be together. i told myself that i would do what ever it took to go to california no matter what happened, and i would meet her and we would be happy... but one day she said she didn't feel the same as she did before, and that she wanted to break up. i was an emotional wreck for 3 days and heart broken for i don't know how long. i always thought about her. i told her i didn't want to speak to her anymore as i couldn't bring myself to talk to the person who broke my heart. after a while she PM'd me on Gaia saying she wanted to talk because she missed me. we just kept texting each other for a while until recently, like a month ago, she told me she was dating some guy because her friends wanted her to. i got a bit jealous and started questioning her. she asked me why i was and i said because i still had feelings for her. that day we talked alot, and i told her i was planning on going to california, and that i would be with her like we always wanted. but then not even a month later she wouldn't talk to me, and when i tried to talk to her she wouldn't answer. i asked her why she wasn't talking to me and what was going on and she finally said that she had a boyfriend and that she did love me, but not anymore. she was answering in a very serious text, like she was mad at me. we haven't talked since. i wish i knew what was wrong. i think she said she had a boyfriend just to give an answer. i wonder if I'll ever talk to her again.
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