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I'm so sick of this s**t!
so sick of listening to you beat me down.
tell me things that you have no business saying.
accusing and assuming that you know what my intentions are.
oh, how little you really know.

i don't care how mad you are.
it is not an excuse to call me a whore, or a "house wife", or a c**k sucker, or "confused", or whatever the hell else you can think of to call me.
Do i send you endless insults?
do i wake you up in the night with a guilt trip?
do i send you through mind games every other day?
No, i do not.
you asked me to leave you alone because it was "too painful", and i have.
i have not sent you a single note, letter, or message, other than to say thanks for the online gifts.
it is documented and saved.
i have not bothered you.
just as you wanted.

because its "too painful".

so why is it ok for you to continue to harass me?
am i supposed to just keep my mouth shut while you talk down to me like I'm a piece of trash?
just let you rant?
I'm sorry dear, but you should know me better than that.

i will not settle for this.
i will make you my enemy.
i will cut you out like every other worthless piece of s**t that i have dated and not look back.
you think you're THAT important to me, that i wouldn't do it?
that you can just keep pushing the envelope?
just try me.
i dare you.

i have tried to be nice.
i have tried to be civil since it was me that hurt you.
but i have never once degraded you.
never once called you anything.
i never did before and im not going to.
i dont even talk to my friends badly of you.
i say the truth and speak my piece, and leave it at that.
i do not bad mouth you.
so why do find it necessary to do it to me?
are you that shallow?
i really thought you were better than this crap.

and today!
god, I'm so ******** mad!
wake me up in the middle of the night to send me a message that says,
and i quote:
"i cant handle life without you even tho you dont love me."
followed by:
"you disgust me."

me: "Thanks, Thats real nice of you. Hope it makes you feel better to hurt me with your mouth."

You: "Sorry I was under the influence of uppers and vodka."

I then fill you in with little tid bits about how speed ******** up your natural systems for the rest of your life, along with some of my own shocked insults.
Just to clarify, they were insults like : "you stupid ********", "god damn you idiot", and stuff of that sort.

You're excuse for taking it was this:
"I dont want to feel anymore. If I'm going to be curled up on the floor, might as well be ******** up and curled up on the floor."

why the hell would you tell me this s**t?
got me all worked up.
I sent ($^%%& wink a message asking why she would give you herbal speed when we were just talking last night about how we both dont think you need drugs to get through your issues.
And the kicker, after making me out to be an a**?
Making me freak out and send the messages you sent me to your best friend in a desperate attempt to save you from yourself, cause i know what speed can do to you, and i know how you are when it comes to substances.
you just dont know how to moderate or quit.

You send this:
"By the way, I lied about the speed to make you hate me."

You ******** a** hole!
Why the hell would you do all that?!
What was the purpose?!
And if that was your honest intention, then why would you tell me it was, cause then your plan was in vain.
You are such a stupid ********!

And to think, i just spent hours talking to Holly, telling her that you are NOT a liar, and what do you do?
After I just told her not to worry about it, that you're not that type of person.
What the hell are you thinking?

Getting me to hate you?
you did a great job of that.
i am not talking to you anymore.
i dont care if you're laying in a pool of your own vomit, i am not talking to you anymore.
congratulations, you succeeded you drama whore.